everything tastes better with whisky now. as i turn to drink to help me forget, i realize i am always discontent and tire of things quickly. i dwell on the failures in my life and i never look on the bright side. thankfully, i am not suicidical.
unfortunately, i find most things dissatisfying.
always, i need more.
i can guess the future by thinking logically and seeing what the natural progression of things would be if things are left as they are. but even with a plan, or a forward thinking vision, i am unable to reap substantial rewards from it for lack of resources.
i have become very good at distracting myself.
i watch movies, tv, read, etc.
it isn't just that i enjoy them. it's also anything to keep me from thinking about the disappointments in my life.
but then, i have heard that an unexamined life is an unlived one
would i even be writing this if i had a war chest of millions of dollars to better effectively keep me from reflecting on things like this?
i like cataloging and keeping lists. it helps to remind me since i seem to forget a lot of things.